I'm Your Sunshine

Everything in Life

Survive

What will you do if everything around you become rude?
Day after day people messing your life
They just come when their need you
They are gone when you live on the bottom place, no money, no things you have
You only can say “What should I do?”
Be a survival
Yes, you have to be survive
Everyone will gone
Everything will disappeared
In the end you are standing alone
Maybe in the corner, in back stage, sit on the bottom place, or
Standing in front of and upside people who leave you alone when you are nothing
Just survive
Everything gonna be okay
And always gonna be okay

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For Someone Who Loved My Curly Hair

Dear Someone there,

Thanks for loving my curly hair. Maybe it’s too late to say thank you. I’m full of gratefulness when God decided us to know each other. I love my curly hair deeper than before when I know someone like you. I believe in fate and everything happen not by coincidence. Everything happen for a reason. And you are the reason make me happier more and more.

Sorry for my mistake and my attitude then make you uncomfortable.

I miss someone who loved my curly hair. This is amazing grace for me because it can make you smile and happy when you looking my hair. I always remember the way you smile and the way you look at me. Although that’s only from far, from video call and picture… I was imagine how you react if we can meet in a real life. You really make me happy and I’m not realizing this before. I’m start falling in love with you minute by minute, day by day….

This is my curly hair make me happy cause it can make you smile and smile and smile… I hope my curly hair always make you falling in love with me day by day.

I really want you always remember about me, about my curly hair, about me and our conversation of course about my curly hair… 😀

I miss the moment when you chat me and can’t be patient waiting my reply. I feel the same wih you. But I guess I’m little unlucky because you are gone. I’m sad but it help me to realize my true feeling for you and about us.

I want to say Thank You.

Again and again… thank you for love my curly hair. Thank you for like me for what I am. Even though you stay away from me day by day… I always grateful know about you.

Yes you are perfect and great person. But I don’t really care about that. I don’t care about your past, about your job, about this and that… for me what are you feeling for me that’s more than important than everything you have.

I don’t know what do you want or what are you looking for before you found me.

Even thought you just want for fun, that doesn’t matter… because my feelings for you is sincere. I’m just hoping you can feel the same.

Really thanks for my curly hair because you like it for the first sight.

Hope the best for you… and I’m sure you always there and never leave me…

And I’m not okay when you are gone and never say hello to me even ignored my message..

“Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end.”

~John Lennon~

Always Proud of you.

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Misteri

Hidup itu misteri…
Penuh misteri…
Menimbulkan misteri…
Bahkan hidup adalah misteri itu sendiri
Di satu masa kita ga pernah tau kenapa kita ada di tempat ini atau itu
Jalani saja… nikmati.. jawabannya akan selalu datang tepat waktu
Itulah misteri
Jangan terlalu banyak menduga dan berasumsi…
Ingat semua hanya tentang misteri
Berpikirlah yang baik..
Supaya jawaban dari misteri itu juga baik
Meski proses yang kamu jalani dibalik jawaban misteri itu begitu menyulitkan
Percaya saja..
Misteri itu gambaran kebaikan di masa depan
Sama seperti ketika dia pergi tanpa pesan
Menghilang…
Atau terpaksa berkhianat karena keadaan, meskipun tak ada alasan apa pun yang sepadan untuk sebuah pengkhianatan..
Bahkan ketika dia muncul membawa misteri ditengah misteri yang belum terpecahkan…
Percaya saja
Semua akan berakhir baik…
Misteri

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Menangislah…

Menangis itu terkadang bisa buat sakit kepala hilang begitu saja…
Tidak perlu sungkan dibilang lemah atau cengeng, toh itu manusiawi
Kalau kita punya berjibun beban dipundak yang bisa sampai menarik syaraf di otak dan akhirnya bikin sakit kepala ga tertahan… kita bisa apa?
Cerita sama orang yang kita kenal belum tentu bisa kasih kita solusi.
Kalau kamu ga tahan dengan semua itu
Menangis saja.
Terkadang sesederhana itu
Pergi saja dari tempatmu sekarang dan cari ruangan gelap yang sempit
Menangislah..
Cobalah berkomunikasi dengan batinmu.
Yang paling mengerti diri kita ya kita sendiri, jadi rasanya kita harus membiasakan diri berkomunikasi dengan diri kita sendiri…
Dalam hati saja… nanti kamu dikira gila hehe..
Iya, saya memang suka menangis daripada membagi beban saya dengan orang lain.
Saya sangat tahu kalau setiap orang punya beban masing-masing yang harus dipikul dan dibawa kemana saja.
Saya paling tidak suka menjadi beban untuk orang lain, dalam hal apapun. Meski pada akhirnya saya terus membebani mereka.
Karena itu… saya hanya berbincang dengan Sang Maha Tahu… dia tidak akan mengejek saya karena cengeng dan terlalu sering menangis.
Dia tidak menganggap saya lemah dan melemahkan saya dengan kata – kata yang menghakimi…
Dia hanya menghembuskan angin segar.. dan memeluk saya dengan kehangatan..
Menenangkan saya… sehingga beban saya yang begitu berat.. dapat saya tanggung dengan hati yang tenang dan kuat..
Menangislah.. jika hanya itu yang bisa dilakukan..
Dia selalu menakar air mata yang menetes dan membasahi pipi..
Menangis dalam kegelapan itu membuat saya dapat terus tertawa dibawah mentari..
Menangislah…

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Bumerang #1

Senjata kaum aborigin
Bisa jadi sangat mematikan ketika ada di tangan yang tepat
Sayangnya bumerang itu menjelma jadi kata yang diucapkan mulut seorang manusia lupa diri
Kini perlahan
Bumerang yang kau lemparkan padaku kembali mendatangi tuannya
Bukan untuk ditangkap dan dikuasai kembali
Tapi untuk berbalik menyerang sang tuan

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I Like Beach; I’m Not Bitch 

​Yes .. I really liked the beach … but that does not mean I’m a bitch … slut … or something like that… hahaa … 😄

What do you like about the beach?

White sand?

Waves?

The water?

Coral reef?

The sky?

Try to imagine how much that can go to your favorite list when standing on the beach.
I love the beach. Very fond of it. When all of it into one I liked. It is the harmony of nature. The wind is blowing as tells about understanding of what we bring to it.

Some people may not like the heat of the sun there, but for me it was so warm corner blazing heart that has long been frozen.
I almost melted made.
Then what is the relationship and the correlation between the beach and the bitch? Aahh actually nothing too important .. just a matter of how we spell it.
But the beach really never seize the slightest happiness.

Right????

Beach … could even bring our grief even though we just write our hearts content in the sand.
But not with the bitch. Need not be disclosed … he grabbed everything … but not take away our hope. Maybe this time it wins … whereas … the beach destroyed by the waves. Slammed into the hot white sand and then dragged her into the deepest ocean … so…

That’s why I love the beach but I am not a bitch and do not like bitch … lol 😃

What about you? 

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Ada sebuah cerita, yang suatu hari…
Kan terungkap secara sengaja atau
Memang ingin diungkap..
Cerita hidup yang telah lama tersimpan rapi
Seseorang ya… seseorang
Yang saya kenal…
Entah ini rekaan atau nyata…
Jangan terlau mempercayainya…

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